Become

by LILLAKE

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released July 19, 2016

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LILLAKE Los Angeles, California

LILLAKE [lil-ik] was created by Nico Santora in early 2015. The full length debut album 'Become' features Nico on guitar/vox, Eric Moore on drums, and Evan Brewer on bass.

Current Live Lineup:
Nico Santora - Guitar/Vox
Steven Funderburk - Guitar
Alex Vazquez - Bass
Eric Moore - Drums

Management:
Justis Mustaine @ CTK Mgmt.

Booking:
Trevor Swenson @ Artery Global
trevor@arteryglobal.com
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Track Name: Half Dead
What you see in me is a lie
Crying alone inside, wishing to die
I walk on the line, contemplate suicide every day
Gaining momentum, watching the pavement close in on me, breaking the fall

Chasing death before I ever give my
Self a chance
To live what one would consider a normal life
But I can't
Seem to get it right, I always fuck up
Everything
Half dead, half alive

Soul is degrading, waiting for pain
As another day passes by, feeling the same
I'm blinded to change, failing to realize other ways
To challenge myself, give my life meaning again
Taking control

Chasing death before I ever give my
Self a chance
To live what one would consider a normal life
But I can't
Seem to get it right, I always fuck up
Everything
Half dead, half alive

How do you suppose I live when I feel dead inside?
Juxtapose, carry on even though I know I'm losing my mind
Desperate to control all the voices in the back of my head
Telling me that my life is a waste and I'm better off dead
Track Name: Will It
A living thing, any being, every ranking falls
In the cracks of the ignorance written on the wall, if you let it

But everything could change,
back to the original status
To manufacture a society perpetuating science

But the information we're fed is all shitted
And if you think you can't forget, well then you can just forget it

Enter into a new paradigm where everybody listens
To the fact that anything is possible if you will it

Everywhere you look there is an obvious sign
Looking back to when things were different, a simpler time
Understand that your mind is infinite there is no limit
You have the power to control every facet of life
If you will it!

Witness the pineal opening up in front of you
Don't have to pray, it's like any other choice, just choose it!

Ignoring anything that's getting in the way of your choosing
A new eye is open, now that you can see the world for what it is

You will come to find that you've been living a lie
And if you think you can survive it then you're ready to

Die for the wolves that see you as ignorant sheep that are willing
To walk a perfect line, subjugating, doing their bidding

Everywhere you look there is an obvious sign
Looking back to when things were simpler, a different time
Understand that there is no limit your mind is infinite
You have the power to control every facet of life

Strangled to death
The noose, wrapped around your throat
Your lucky if you ever see the light of day
Trapped in your home

Breaking the chains
Escape from all of the bigotry
You don't have to sit still anymore

Open your mind
This is the only way
You have to fucking will it
The true potential's locked inside of you
Track Name: Become
Wings dormant on the back of your existence
Waiting to take you away from this stagnate state of life; perpetuate
Cynical mind over delusion
Have you ever just felt like you’re wasting your life away for something that you thought would change
How you felt
Inside and your emotions
You can no longer feel the light behind your eyes, as dead to the world as you could be
Remaining alive
Staring into a black hole
Begging for change, waiting for anyone other than yourself to take the reigns

Brain ascending
Become anything that you could hope or ever dream
Look outside the window
Become

More than you could ever dream
It’s easier than it seems
If others are capable, what makes you think that they possess some kind of advantage over you
Control over potential
All that is missing inside is found by ridding yourself of the fear that some things won’t go your way
You’ll live to see another
Day
Wake up and realize that there is much more to the mind
You’re in the way
Comfortable in your box now
While you pay
With your blood and your sweat and your tears, and your pain

Brain ascending
Become anything that you could hope or ever dream
Look outside the window
Become

Become more than you could imagine before
The information is somewhere buried inside
You can bet it all comes down to it
It’s all whether or not you’re willing to fly

Becoming more than you could imagine before
Your identity’s somewhere buried inside
It’s up to you, dig deep you’ll find it
Or you can keep the life you hate right up until you die
Track Name: Closer
Instrumental
Track Name: The Liar
Thrown myself
Under the bus again
Delusion sets in, I can never win
Just why
Can’t I be free of it
At least I’m trying

Fucked myself again
The cycle starts all over
I feel the demons
Hands are on my shoulder
Just why
Why can’t I just be free
From all of this
I’ve lost my head

Finding it harder to ignore, all the thoughts are flooding in from a different place
Trying to convince, digging even deeper when I know that I’m the one in the wrong
Build a story, easy outing, only problem is I have already set my fate
And by the end of it all I am finding myself with another lie hidden right
Behind my face

I can’t believe all the choices I’ve made have led me to this
I have become something hated by every soul that crosses me
Put on a fake smile, tell a couple stories like I’m not a total piece of shit
Ignorant to the fact that everyone sees me lying right through my teeth

Pulling strings, different things need attention when you fabricate a fallacy
It’s all about the minor details, how can I make you believe in me
Mind full of lies, I’m breeding pure insanity
Unable to bare my own reflection, sick to death of me

And every time I get a chance to change or redeem myself
I fuck it all up in the most splendiferous fucking way
Just when I thought I had it all under control, I went and lost my head
All.. Over again

I can’t believe all the choices I’ve made have led me to this
I have become something hated by every soul that crosses me
Put on a fake smile, tell a couple stories like I’m not a fuckin’ piece of shit
Ignorant to the fact that everyone sees me lying

I can’t believe all the choices I’ve made
Have led me to this, I have become a mother fucking shame
Mind full of lies, I’m breeding pure insanity
Unable to bare my own reflection, sick to death
Of me

And the cycle starts again
Delusion sets in, I can never win
Just why
Can’t I be free of it
At least I’m trying

Fucked myself again
The cycle starts all over
I feel the demons
Hands are on my shoulder
Just why
Why can’t I just be free
From all of this
I’ve lost my head

We are
We are only human
You are
I am only human

We are
We are only human
You are
I am only human

We’re all the same
Track Name: Believe In Me / What's Left
‘Believe In Me':

I thought I knew you
I assumed you knew me too
But all along
The feeling was
Inside of me
That you were all wrong

Believing all
Believing myself
Reading beyond
The fiction inside
A book of ink
A fallacy
Come unto me
Come unto my Son

I thought I’d recognize this
It’s something I’ve seen before
But all along
You doubted me
Soon you will see
What does it all mean

Believing all
Believing myself
Reading beyond
The fiction inside
A book of ink
A fallacy
Come unto me
Come unto my sun


‘What’s Left’:

I’ll believe what I’m told no matter what I perceive
What excuse would they have to blatantly lie to me
Head over my feet, falling end over end again
What’s the point of all of this, or is it all just for pretend

What does it say about your mind
To leave everything all up to chance
Setting yourself up for disappointment in the end
Better to leave than stay and die
Wondering if you read the words okay
You’ll believe what you’re told no matter what you perceive
And I don’t think that it is worth the risk

Frustrating is the sight of it
Holding onto belief like a kettle burning red
Nothing to do but wait and see
Will the light come from above and shine on us

What if we’re both wrong and nothing happens in the end
Just black, enfolding darkness
Shrouding in solace
Eternal void has come
Track Name: How Becoming
I can see you don’t get it
And in a way it’s pathetic
You’re wasting all your time
Try to find another way
Nothing to say

Sick in the brain
Out of my way

Don’t you get it
How many times have I said it
Stop wasting all your time
Try to find a better way
Something to say

Feeling insane
Try to understand it while you pray to forget it

And in a way it’s pathetic
You’re wasting all your time
Try to find another way
Nothing to say

(You’re)
Sick in the brain
Out of my way

Don’t you get it
How many times have I said it
Stop wasting all your time
Try to find a better way
Something to say

(I’m)
Feeling insane

I’ve been on the verge of tears for weeks now
Still unable to cry
Numb to all of my emotions
More to me than meets the eye

Give into the faults that plague me
Live unlimited sin
Heart is turning black before my very eyes and caving in
Track Name: In A Sense
I cannot believe
That something so insignificant
Can be the thing
That ends it all

I forget to take a step back
From all of it
And see
It from another way
Away

I once had a dream
That everything was okay
But then
I woke up to
The pain again

I forget to take a step back
From all of it
And see
It from another way
Away

I can’t say I know
The answer to all of it
The same to all of you
The same to all

Life is such a vicious circle
Full of regret
And shame
Look what’s become of me
I’ve given up
Track Name: Killing Game
Lost from the beginning
Innocence moves now to the wayside
Traveled to the edge of the earth
Now finding solace in the simple life
Experience gained
But I feel no different inside
Turning now to the book of the dead
In the pages turning away and falling down

I’m gaining a sense
That it all has been an illusion
Forgetting to use my head
Confusing solace with reality
Meanings hidden between
Crying out at the myth of religion

I have tried to believe
Innocence calling me
I have tried to believe in fate

I’ve seen this in my dreams
That the end was the true existence
Nothing is what it seems
Life now becoming aimless in my mind
Regretting the past
Proliferating depression
Turn again to the book of the dead
In the pages turning away and falling down

Giving into belief
Killing game if you’re not on the same side
I feel this isn’t the way
Try to understand it, failing miserably
I’m gaining a sense
That it all has been an illusion

I have tried to believe
Innocence calling me
I have tried to believe in fate beyond
Beyond me

I have tried to believe
Innocence calling me
I have tried to believe in fate beyond
Beyond me